I had hoped to write after my second class, but in hindsight, I am glad that I didn't. The first week didn't go without it's cravings and temptations, but turns out I faced my hardest day yet. Day 9. I don't know what happened, but yesterday was a rough one for me. I had an eye appointment in the morning, which put me a wee behind schedule on drinking my drink. I thought perhaps I could just drink it in the car on my way to work, which was working out fine until I forgot half of the supplement in the car and decided not to go back for it...big mistake. I don't know it if was my mind or my body, but I truly believe this threw me off for the rest of the day. I didn't think there was much left in it, but when I got back to the car at the end of the day, there was still half a box left.
When I got into the office, I had some tea, like I have been doing, then some water, but not enough to sustain me. If I want this program to work, I need to start sticking to the details and making them work for me, like finishing my entire supplement "juice box", as I call them, since that is exactly what the ready mades look like. I had spare supplements in my cubby hole that we received in our trial week before class started, but I thought I would be okay...another big mistake. I have to stop worrying about how much weight I want to lose and start focusing on the weight I am losing each week. I was afraid to put on a few calories, so I did not want to make a whole new supplement which I should have, because the rest of the day I was craving food. Nothing in particular, but something as simple as a saltine cracker...I thought, what if I ate just one, but no. no no. Food is not an option for me. Other people can cheat, but I don't want to, I want to stick to the book with this program... and fortunately I stuck with my evening plan, I made my tomato soup, added some garlic powder and in the meantime also made my optifast chocolate "pudding", which seemed to cure my foodie blues.
I am fully aware that the end result for this process is going to be a good thing, but getting there can be one of two ways, fun, but not so easy, or hard and hard and I am determined to make it fun and not so easy. I am determined to find different ways to make this process interesting and exciting for me. I have just under 14 weeks to go, or something like that and just over 10 weeks until we transition back to food, but for as busy as I am and for as many things as I have coming up, this can come quickly and I look forward to what is in store in those 10-14 weeks. I know anything will be better than being 240.3 pounds (Kp's scale) which is where I started. This morning I weighed myself and I was 230.0 (my scale) pounds exactly. In a week and a half I have lost 7 pounds, without this program, I would be at 2 pounds a week, so I have to remember the strides I am taking and keep shooting for that.
This program isn't necessarily for everyone, but it is for me and I know I can do this and I know I will stick to this....it's time for a change and to not just talking about it. For once I am going to finish what I start and I going to show myself that I can.
Until the next time.
I got this.....
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